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Rambles Of A Working Girl

I was at work, ignoring customers like always working on payroll, when I pulled out the journal I always have with me on the sales floor. Don't ask me why I have these thoughts numbered, jut go with it. Here are a few of the things I wrote while...working. 

1. I will not work for other people forever. At the age of nineteen, I started working in retail. There were good times that I've captured in photos, and there were bad times that I can't seem to erase from my memory. I've always said that only the strong survive in retail, because customer service is a hard job to handle. In the six years that I'm been in retail (three years of management) I've learned that I have to be my own boss. I don't like working for a large corp, it's far to easy to get lost in the shuffle. I don't like people planning my days, telling me when I have to be somewhere. I've got maybe another year before I retire from retail. I'm in school for a reason, and this is not it.

Another downside to retail/customer service, it has completely killed what little patience Kennedi left me with. I roll my eyes at least ten times a day at the dumb shit people say.

2. Speaking of dumb shit people say. Whoever said there is no such thing as a dumb question, clearly never worked in retail. I can not begin to tell you how many stupid, idiotic, ridiculous, and just plain dumb questions I hear daily. So is this jacket that says $20.99 is it really $20.99, or is it cheaper? I'm so over this.

3. I can't save the world. I've always wanted to be able to erase other people's pain. I don't like seeing other people hurt or cry. But I can't save everybody. If I try to save everyone from drowning, they'll eventually weigh me down, and then we'll all be screwed. *that sounded better in my head but ya'll know what I mean*

4. It is completely unfair to make others pay for someone else's mistake. It is so important to heal before starting new relationships. Not just romantic relationships, but friendships also.

5. In life, it is so important to surround yourself with people who support you just as much as you support them. If you find that you are giving everything and getting nothing in return, (i.e. support, love, understanding...) walk away from it. It's not worth the pain. And it is painful.

6. Love is so important. But the most important love, is the love you have for yourself. 

7. When you say you've moved on and you really haven't, it's ok. It takes time, don't let anyone rush you in or out of love.

8. You have a dream, make it a realty. No one ever accomplished anything by sitting around and waiting for it to just happen to them. I got my first piece published this year. I made that happen because I wanted it to happen.

9. Every accomplishment is big, because you did it.

10. Live! You never want to look back on your life and say, I wish I had...

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