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Almost There


This challenge has been hard on me. I've been forced to think off the top of my head, and come up with new things to write about everyday, It has forced me to be vulnerable enough to share my insecurities. In doing this challenge I publish things that I normally wouldn't, because to me, the writing is not good enough.

                                                          This has been exhausting

Although it's been great practice, because now I've gotten into the habit writing everyday, it has taken me away from other (writing) things that I should be working on. I almost quit after seven days, I didn't feel like I could keep this up, but my momma didn't raise no quitter. I can't remember (without thinking VERY hard) a time where I quit something because I felt like I couldn't do it. But it's still exhausting. 

On the bright side, we are very close to the finish line. Some people didn't make it. They quit because to be honest, this challenge is not easy. But it's necessary. 

"All who have accomplished great things have had a great aim, have fixed their gaze on a goal which was high, one which sometimes seemed impossible."

                                                       ~Orison Swett Marden

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